It is Monday Listicles from Stasha at The Good Life, and today's topic is change.
This week's list was very difficult for me to do. I normally put the list together as soon as I learn of the topic, flooded with creativity and excitement, but here it is Sunday evening and I am wondering why my inspiration is still so slow to arrive.
Is it that I am just so tired of chasing my 4 and 2 year old daughters and our puppy behind my 28 week pregnant belly?
Is it because I've been reading so many fantastic posts about change that I feel like it's all been said?
Is it because I just finished writing 4,600 words in two days for a new short story?
Is it because all I feel like doing is sleeping?
Is it my emotional state from thinking and reading about 9/11?
It is September 11th today, and I have been absent from blogging for a few days now. The time away has helped me to slow down and sit with my children more, playing with them and relaxing. But my heart has been heavy as I have been thinking about all of the changes that have happened around the world in the past 10 years. I imagine I am not alone in finding myself wishing some changes never happened.
So this led me to think about changes I wished for (most of them during my adolescence) that never happened. And I am so grateful that these changes I wished for went on to be unanswered prayers.
The road has been a difficult one, but I have learned to truly appreciate who I am. I believe I am enough. I am more than the sum of my parts.
Changes I Wished for and am Grateful They Never Happened
1. My mind - I wished to change from having a mind that struggles to a mind that is naturally brilliant.
2. My track performance - I wished to change my slow legs for long, lean, fast legs so I could hurdle.
3. My book addiction - I wished to change from a studious, introverted bookworm to a social butterfly.
4. My hair - I wished to change my corkscrew curls in for silky long locks.
5. My voice - I wished to exchange my old soul, thinker voice for a vibrant, life-of-the-party voice.
6. My country - I wished to leave the U.S. behind to live in Costa Rica forever.
7. My first love - I wished to change his mind about letting me go and moving on.
8. My time - I wished to exchange the few minutes I had to write for hours and hours of writing time.
9. My blog - I wished to modify my blog from serious, sometimes dry posts to a witty, fun-loving blog.
10. My missed opportunities - I wished to go back and take alternative paths that I passed by in order to stay on the straighter, safer path.
I imagine most young adults struggle with appreciating themselves. Most probably wish to change many aspects about themselves. And for some this doesn't go away once they become adults. I've always felt like I am a continual work-in-progress. But a few major events in my life have really helped me to step over that hurdle and realize the beauty of me. And that I don't want to change anything about who I am.
